Wednesday, July 23, 2008Y
i been thru heaven and hell.. and now i m back to earth.. it has been very long since i have blogged.. there are lots of things that happen.. so much things happen that i must list it down one by one..
1. for all my 26 years of life, this is first time i have stepped into a surgery room.. those surgery table and big bright lights one often seen in the drama is REAL! but one thing that did not show in the tv is that in real life, the surgery room is freaking freaking cold.. it was say to prevent or supress infection.. and for day surgery like mine, you can actually see ur neighbour.. so pai seh..
oh.. and general ansethetics is the men greatest invention.. it knock u out in mere 3 breath.. and the next moment u awake, everything is over. Simple.
2. i have been there & thru there.. now tat is over, im stronger than ever! haha.. corny but true..
3. from knowing each other to marriage stage.. it has been nearly 4 years? but i have only seen my dear dear cried 3 times.. let's just skip the first 2 times and fast forward to the 3rd time.. he told me.. he cried beacause he was sad.. not for the loss but for wat i have & need to go thru.. i was really very very touched.. he told me while we are at my bed waiting for the surgery.. i stopped crying ever since.. he told me he will always be there for me and we will go thru together .. again is corny but it touched my heart ..
4. i think i have never cried so much before ( before the surgery).. i guess i was devasted.. the tears can just flow down out of the blue.. everything i see or hear can make me cry.. i must be si bei depressed.. hai..
5. after the surgery, i found out although my parents are super nagging & cartoon.. i found that they really dote on me.. dad & mum came and visit me everyday.. my mum stay over for 2 nights to cook for me while aun go to work.. and my dad came every day to have dinner with me.. my mum even told me that she wouldnt dare to go out afraid that i will be lonely.. so sweet.. did i mention that the day before the surgery my dad fly down to my house? he very long never called me girl girl already.. i think since im 19?
6. my brother is the only one who got the bloody ability to made me cry after the surgery.. yes.. he is those talk-cock-talk-alot-serious-things-cannot-talk that kind of person.. but he sms me something very touching to console me and made me cry.. i mean my parents dote on me i already know long time back.. but for my bro to sms such thing i guess for somebody else it could be no big deal .. but for my bro? is a BIG deal.. it shows he care..
7. i suddenly realised that i am quite a popular in the office ..hwhaah.. i receive a hamper from alot of ppl.. not from those company expenses type.. is those personally paid that kind.. and i receive a lovely note from them.. suddenly i do not dread of going back to work so much..
8. i have frzs out there who knew wat happen.. they wanted to show their concern but some dun know how to console me, some dun dare to talk about it with me, worrying to upset me.. is ok.. i know and i understand.. most importantly, i know u guys still love me.. hehe.. :P
finally finished.. to summarise i felt that im very lucky to have so many ppl love me and dote on me.. thks..
** i suddenly felt that writing blog is good... because 1 day one i might forget how ppl have dote on me, how much my family love me, how supportive my dear is and when i read back my journal.. it remind me how blessed i am..**
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
